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Kenzi

My name is Kenzi. I am 30 years old. My husband (29) and I have a son who will be two in August. I love our little family and I have been so blessed.

But, as we know, we can be both blessed and also struggling. The last 11 years have not been easy for me in any way, but things have come to a head recently and I desperately need prayer.

My family has been doing better this year than we have in a really long time. But our happy healthy days were too good to be true. On April 16, my husband had a panic attack out of nowhere… very strange considering he’s never had them or anxiety before. Over the next two and a half months he has rapidly declined. Lost 25 lbs and experiencing very severe and scary symptoms. 5 ER visits, scheduled appointment with specialists from almost every single area in medicine.

Today, we saw a doctor that has years of oncology experience and when she heard just a very very short summary of just half of his symptoms, she became extremely concerned. After asking and poking and prodding, she very strongly believes that my husband has a rare form of

Non Hodgkin’s lymphoma. We find out for sure if he does on the 16th of this month. I believe it’s true, as his is a textbook example and has every symptom that’s listed. Nothing more. Nothing less. The type that he most likely has is extremely aggressive, very rare, and deadly to almost everyone in 14-17 months after diagnosis. The possibility of my entire world shattering, AGAIN is beyond words. I don’t know how I can lose the most important person in my life and my best friend a second time. The first time almost killed me, I can’t imagine feeling that depth of grief again. (More details in the background portion of this request)

Im terrified, I’m angry, Im feeling broken and defeated. Stressed and exhausted. At the end of my rope. I have a son that may never know his daddy, and just the thought is enough to make be completely break down.

But I cant stop moving because now I have bills to pay that I am solely responsible for because we’ve used up our savings already. I am the caretaker of my husband and I’m s toddler mama. I have too much to do to be sad and broken. My son needs me now more than ever.

Please pray for my husband that God would heal him, that he will be able to watch his son grow up. Pray that she is wrong and it’s not lymphoma and just a combination of maybe a few less serious issues. Pray for wisdom for our doctors. Pray that I would be uplifted and filled with strength in every form, that my faith would remain strong, that I would be able to keep up on everything, and that I would be able to stay positive and uplifting for my little family and be the rock that they need…. (My husband has always been the one who grounds me and our family. my rock. I don’t know how to take on that roll long term of being the strong, level headed, positive comforter). Most of all, pray that I would be able to make my husband feel how much I love him and that I would recognize how special every single moment is and stay present, positive, and thankful.

To anyone that takes the time to pray for us, or to read this, thank you! If you would like to understand our history and would like to hear some of our story, below is a bit of pertinent backround on our lives and why I am so so distraught.

A little background and short summary on life in the last 11 years….

In 2014 my dad died after a medical procedure. We were the best of friends and so close. I fell apart after this and my anger and grief made me pull away from God instead of closer and leave my faith.

In 2017 I began to feel ill. It started with fatigue but got worse and worse until by 2021 I was having seizures daily, reproductive system was dying, liver was failing…. I was not ok. I had seen so many doctors but everyone said I was fine. I got so depressed, suicidal, and literally was becoming psychotic from all the toxin build up in my body and the changes it had on my brain chemistry.

I started doing drugs. Fentanyl. My husband and I both were in full blown addiction within weeks… neither of us ever having issues with addiction or substance abuse before this. As you can imagine our lives spiraled out of control.

But in 2023, we found out we were expecting a baby. A MIRACLE. I didn’t think I could even have kids because of my health. We immediately made the decision to get sober and on March 10, 2023 we did. Haven’t looked back since!

Things were looking up, they were hard in some aspects, but so good and so exciting in others! We both found Jesus and Found each other. We couldn’t wait to creste the life we wanted! job opportunities for my husband and his business didn’t stop, the pregnancy was going amazing despite s rough start, and we were quickly crawling out of the hole we dug for ourselves.

But then in July, Reece got sepsis bursitis in his knee (infection in the bursa sac) and was hospitalized for a week. He was on drip antibiotics and then a large push dose every three hours. By the time he finished, his entire immune system was shot. I had my son in august, and essentially was a single mom for the first year of his life because my husband was so sick all the time. He couldn’t work, couldn’t do anything with anyone, couldn’t eat, lost so much weight when he did not have weight to lose. From then, until now, he has not felt good. My husband, once full of life and adventure, was deteriorating before my eyes. We went to doctors and doctors and had labs and labs done, and nothing. Everyone said it was stress or depression and I could not get them to understand that it was the other way around.

He finally started feeling so much better in March and April of this year! For the first time in about 4 years I felt like I was finally seeing the man I fell in love with again. ….. until it all came crashing down on me and the boot that I used to expect and finally taught myself to stop fearing, it finally dropped on me and my family and we need desperately need your prayers.

Received: July 3, 2025